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July 13 came and went with no call from The Voice. Not gonna lie I was a little disappointed. But, life has kept me so busy that I haven't had the time (to dwell). In the past few weeks, my toy poodle, Maddie, passed after 16 years. Maddie RIP. I love you, forever. Then, I sliced up my hand with an electric sander while I was attempting to sand the back deck. And, of course, music... music... music..: )
BTW - At a friends nudging, I submitted myself for AGT. I had never done that before. Because, I want to be taken seriously as an artist. I want a career in the music industry. And I assumed that AGT would not be the place for me. But, she talked me into it. So, I could hear anytime between now and next spring ...or not at all ...gawd, I hate the audition process.
See you next time!
Now they've got this thing where you send them a submission video. Then, choose you for a scheduled audition at the open call city you choose.
I submitted myself maybe 3 weeks ago. I haven't heard, yet.
The hardest thing about all of this is the self-doubt. You know? I look for, and find, the reasons they haven't called; which is bullshit. I know I'm a good singer. I know I touch people when I sing. I know my songs are good and they are authentic.
I allow self-doubt to hang out in my mind, too long. All in the name of "wanting to become better." what a bunch of crap. I am as good as I need to be for The Voice or Songland ...or The Playlist (hasn't come out yet.) I've got to catch those thoughts, as soon as they happen, and say ...bye bye.: )
They got this new thing. Where you sign up for an Open Call Audition in one of the cities that are available. For me, that was San Fransisco. Then, you post a blacked out video of an audition song, on Instagram. I sang a "Kiss From A Rose." If you want to see it, the video's on my IG profile. https://www.instagram.com/jenepherwhite/
I figured I would post the audition. Then if I wasn't chosen by 2 days before the Live Auditions. I would cancel my airline flight (minus $150), the car, the hotel, and the spot in the live Auditions. That way I would only be out $150.
I did not get chosen ...I'm not gonna lie. I was pretty disappointed that I didn't get chosen. you'd think I'd be used to it by now.
But, I'll be releasing my new single, "Out" in a few months. So, there's that to look forward
In 2013,there was the revitalization of my soul ...I sang for the first time as a solo artist in over 20 years. The time away from music was due to my brain hemorrhaging ...and a lot of fear of performing (The basic history is in my Bio.: )
When I sang again, my whole world opened up to me. Up until that point, I was sure I would never perform again. I had many reasons, starting with taking care of myself. Making sure I had a consistent job and that it provided health insurance. As I saw it, it was an either or proposition. Either sing ...or take care of myself.
Ok ...there was the way I looked, also. After the BH I was droopy on the right side, and I had no balance. Then, there were the subsequent hospitalizations. On top of all that, was the mountain of fear that I had to face, every time I dared to perform.
But, there was a fairly new show out called "The Voice." I, of course, was a solid fan. I did not miss a show. For 2 years I would watch it and not even dream about me being on it. "The Voice" was for when I had a voice.
When I sang again as a solo artist. And I felt the exchange between me and the audience ...and I remembered all the words! I thought of The Voice, immediately. I started submitting myself. I stopped keeping track of how many times I've submitted myself. I mean, I have all the evidence. But, I just get sad if I think about it, too long.
On the really good side, I had started writing songs, again. Not only that, my latest single, "Out". is soon to be released; on May 5, 2019. And I had a large part in arranging and producing it!! ...who I am becoming as an artist is crazy exciting!!!
Come join me on this "Road To ...What's next???" : D
I submitted myself for The Voice, again. But, it's different this time. I am ready to get chosen, this season. I have been preparing to sing on The Voice, for over 4 years. But, each time I submitted myself, I had a lingering thought in the back of my mind, "I wonder if I'm good enough?" Then, when I wouldn't get chosen, it secretly answered my question; "No." But, I am not allowing that question to have any reality in my mind. And, I sang my ass off on the submission video.
The confidence is born from a few things; 1) is the internal work I do to prepare myself for the life I want. And 2), the music I write. My latest release is, Brother Call Me Sister (see above!: )
I am ready...: )
Last Update for 2017!
I've been working on my own music. I took this season off from submitting myself for The Voice. Mostly cause Alicia Keys wasn't going to be a judge, this season. And, I really want to work with her.
It's on my Musical To-Do list. Right now, I am working on "Prepared" by Jill Scott. And, I am not sure of my second song ...I'm thinking "Love & Happiness" by Al Green.
On the songwriting side of the house...
I'm at present, figuring out how to get "Brother Call Me Sister" to NBC's The Playlist. See, I've already submitted myself. But, I really want them to hear my latest single.
I'll figure it out!: )
In some ways, this was my favorite of my performances ...in other ways, not so much. On the Up Side; I let even more of me, out! That was great!! On the not-so-up side; I totally blew Rise Up. My voice cracked a lot.: (
Also, the piano playing was off, through part of the song. The thing is, I had a perfect Rise Up, the night before in rehearsal.
Anyway, that's the thing about being "live." You never know exactly what is going to happen?!?
V – WadeInTheWater 093016
V – RiseUp 093016
V – Feeling Good 093016
V – Freedom 093016
Still waiting for The Voice to call...
While I'm waiting though, I did get some great news. Apparently, Edmonds Tunes wants me back. Which is crazy??? Because I am still not there "normal fair." Meaning, I don't accompany myself and I sang only "covers;" no original material.
This time, I still won't be accompanying myself. But, Randy Jones will be playing keyboards for me. Yaay!! And, I will be debuting an original song, "Freedom - When I Got Here."
I am very happy to show up and perform, almost anywhere!
So, I'm booked for September 30. Mark it in your calendars!
We're gonna have a great time!!
I just submitted myself, again, for "The Voice." I agonized over what songs to send. They ask you to keep your video's "Unlisted." So, I won't tell you which one's they are, right now. The submission is good for two months. If you don't hear from them by then. You're not going to.
But, they tell you to keep submitting yourself. Because them not calling is not a sign of you not being good enough.
I'm glad I'm from Los Angeles and worked as an "Extra" and a "Studio Driver." I know they are telling the truth. There are so many factors to putting on a TV show like "The Voice."
I learned something about myself with this submission...
I used to tell people I had, "a voice like Karen Carpenter and a soul like Patti LaBelle." It was a source of great frustration. But, as I was watching one of the videos that I was going to submit ...I got it ...my soul was in my voice! No, I still don't sound like Patti LaBelle ...but, I sound like me! And it's only the beginning!!
That is what I have been wanting all of my life.
When I came back, 3 years ago, I promised myself I would sing from my soul. And finally, I've got it!! Yaay!!!
Don't get me wrong. I am not saying I've arrived or anything. I will keep on working to open up more and sing; "naked" as it were.
But, THAT is one of my fondest hopes ...and it has finally started to come true!: )